My Complex

It’s not a big secret or anything (just unspeakable haha) but i have this big obsession with Weddings. Not just having a “wedding” in general, but all the details that comes with a wedding. Themes, decor, flowers, lighting, seating arrangements, venue,  favors, dresses, accessories, food, invitations, etctera, etctera. Whatever you can think of, more then likely i would have probably given it some sort of thought if not something already “planned”.

It’s a really weird complex but something about Weddings in general that makes me go crazy and i have already begun stalking wedding-related, wedding-inspired sites/blogs even though i am not even engaged. This isn’t something i randomly bring up in a conversation unless the conversation gets into some sort of wedding-related discussion, THEN you will see my eyes go all funny and i will probably start sharing (and scaring) the discussion participants with my vast-knowledge on wedding dresses and trends. I can almost guarantee nobody can get more hyped up about weddings than me and even if there is someone like that (actually i can name two haha), i will probably be right BEHIND them as the next most hyped up person.

Anyways, another reason why this isn’t brought up a lot is because i don’t want guys to refer to me as the crazy girl who has her wedding planned. Even though its true, it totally ruins my chance with any guy right? Now since i’ve been happily taken by the mister as of 041907’, this obsession of mine has become an even bigger unspeakable subject, a taboo. Not allowed to talk about this because

1. i don’t want people to start asking when will they be invited to the wedding
2. (The Main Reason), i do not want to scare the shit out of him. Which is why I try to be as discreet as possible even though I am sure he is pretty scared shitless (im sorry) and try to pretend that i don’t have this obsession.

I need to point out though, that i understand with a wedding comes “Marriage”. As i am typing this I am twenty two (turning twenty three) and i can confidently say

i am no where near ready for Marriage (mentally or financially).

I think people make that automatic assumption that i am ready to settle down because i am already thinking of a “Wedding” for myself (yeah for myself, not for me and my significant other haha i’m so selfish) but that’s really not the case as strange as that may be. Yeah the time will come but its not at the age of twenty two (or twenty three, or twenty four….or twenty five….or twenty six….you get the idea, it’ll be a while).

I started tumblr-ing back in February or something as a test to see how i enjoy micro-blogging. I noticed that a large number of my posts are wedding-related, which is why i’ve decided to make this tumblr blog strictly wedding-related, or anything that’s very romantic and whimsical-like will be here too.

The reason why i don’t want to blog/share about things like this on my other blog is mainly because the mister reads my blogger and it will freaked the hell of him if he sees all these things posted about weddings on a regular basis (or anything too-emo), i mean he has to deal with my annoying-ness already, why make it even harder for him to have to see pictures of brides and grooms all lovey-dovey on a blog that was meant for non-lovely-dovey stuff. Also because if there was a sudden boom of wedding-related posts on my blogger, he’ll start thinking that i’m thinking of marriage when i’m not thinking of marriage but he’ll think i am and start to to think about what the hell he’s going to do. && i don’t want thattttt.

Anyways so that’s a short intro to why i started this.
Enjoy looking at all the things that makes me smile ~


P.S. To the Mister if you read this: Seriously. Do not freak. <3